It’s been a crazy couple of days. I wouldn’t call them hard, because I have been to 3rd world countries and not much that we experience here in America is hard, compared to that. It’s been a challenging couple of days emotionally and personally, but not spiritually.
That’s so like our Heavenly Father. I feel like He allows us to feel Him even closer and stronger when our feelings are hurt, or we are struggling in an area, but trusting Him in through it all.
In the past couple days, my Sara had her wisdom teeth out, so I have been trying to take care of her, while getting prepared for Eli’s first day of school, while our AC is broken at our house and our “warranty” company gave us the run around and decided not to cover our now new AC unit we are having installed in a week. Thank God for window units, and friends that have lent them to us. God’s people all have a way of showing up at the perfect time.
This is going on at home and I’m trying to train my new manager at our store, and begin to train him as the Outreach Director for our church, as well as keep up my writing and teaching deadlines. I absolutely love this, don’t get me wrong. It’s just busy. It’s an honor. It’s fun. It’s just busy. You know what I mean.
Do you know what seems to get to me though, in busyness? That ugly little voice telling me I will never measure up and that ugly little voice that tells me I dropped some ball that is eventually going to be to my demise or the ministries demise.
I’ve learned what to do with that little voice. Rebuke it, in Jesus Name. Because, believe me, I know that ugly voice isn’t God’s. I know that God hasn’t given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. I know that I am not to be anxious about anything, but in everything pray and ask God for help. I know that I am to work hard and do everything to the glory of God, but then, the next thing I have to do is give it to God. I know that I am to Trust God and do good, and that’s it.
You see, I know how my Daddy feels about me and what He has called me to do. I know, because He tells me. He speaks softly to me and He ushers me closer and tells me to sit before Him while He drives out nations before me. He told me yesterday, “Mo, I built you to build things for other people to run.” He spoke that specifically to me in the toy section of the store. Why? Because I built the store, but I’m not supposed to be working in the toy section of the store, where I was yesterday during my normal live teaching. I am supposed to build up my manager, so he can run that store, as I need to write and teach.
Ya’ll, He speaks tenderly to us when we hurt. He comforts us when we aren’t comfortable. He gives us strength to be the nurse, the mom, the homemaker (even of a home in FL without an AC unit, the author, the ministry leader and the friend.
But, we need to let His Word and His voice speak. We have to get still and away from the busyness to let Him speak. We have to choose joy, when we don’t feel joy.
We can choose joy! I have today. Will you?