I am working on faith and patience. God has shown me lately just how much I struggle with this because I have a difficult time enjoying today, preparing and planning for tomorrow. I am in the natural a type-A workaholic. I’m always checking off lists, planning menus and creating strategic plans. I know these are all good things, but they also can be dangerous allies to my trust issues. I often begin to worry about tomorrow’s battles I may have to face with God, and I miss out on today’s quiet, still and peaceful times.
I am obsessed with my bible time. Spending time in God’s Word is so healing for my anxiety. If you have read any of my blogs, you already know that. This morning I was reading one of my devotionals and it was awesome. The author was talking about not always looking off into the distance at the mountains that eventually will become a reality to us. We are to stay in the moment with God trusting that when we reach that mountain someday, (if God doesn’t just change the course so we avoid it altogether), He will give us the strength to climb it knowing He goes before us. It was awesome.
I giggled to myself because I realized that right after I finished that devotional, read the scriptures that accompanied it, the next thing I knew I was thinking; ooh..I need to peak at tomorrows devotional, maybe God will prepare me for whatever it is. I think if Holy Spirit screams, He did so with me this morning. He screamed; “NO MO! You don’t read tomorrow’s devotional, you need to trust me with the cares and concerns of today. What did you just read?” Oh my goodness I am so thick sometimes!
Do you see why we have to renew our minds in the Word of God everyday? We forget the lesson from the devotional, two minutes after we read it and our old fleshy habits and patterns kick into overdrive. We have to constantly, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, line up our thoughts with the Word of God. No trusting our flesh! There is no good thing that comes from it. Trust and obey, all that’s real is today!
Now, if you don’t mind, I am going to go sit out back and enjoy listening to the birds singing. It’s a sunny day today and I don’t want to miss it.